i am in need of...of what?

well, God
i made it through another sweet-sour time
and here i am,
nibbled,
frazzled,
awed,
and in need of...of what?
a chuckle, maybe,
a revolution begun with a belly laugh,
a bronx cheer in the face of the onslaughts
of disaster and death itself.

such is my need;
and this is my wonder.
are you really as humorless,
as grimly serious
as i have made you out to be?
or do aardvarks and monkeys,
bull frogs and platypuses,
puppies and porpoises,
and people, perhaps,
reveal the comic side of your grace,
the playful side of your love?
tickle me into giggling down
the wailing walls
of my endless grievances.
and trip up my wadding pomposities.

Lord of laughter, as of tears,
shake me awake
and teach me to laugh at myself,
at my black-draped solemnity,
over my petty preoccupation with success and failure,
through all the hurt and adversity
until my laughter lures me deep
beneath the terrors without names,
beneath the questions without answers,
beneath the pain without relief;
lures me deep
to the love in me unused,
to the strenght unspent,
to the courage untapped,
to the dream unrisked,
to the beauty unexpressed;
all the way down
to the inescapable bottom,
to the awareness that i must get on
with being who i am
as fully as i can,
as unflinchingly as i can,
as accurately as i can,
which to say,
as gracefully,
as powerfully,
as faithfully
as you have created me to be.

have a very wonderful...peaceful...quiet...restful sunday to everyone out there in the blogger world. just a little prayer for everyone to make this day go by not with a bang but with a big smile. Godbless and adios :P'.